Carrying a box full of three years of accumulated junk and with little fanfare, I walked out of my cubicle, down the hall and through industrial metal door marked “Exit.”
Like most big life transitions, leaving my part-time job of three years was full of complicated emotions. There was never a moment where I felt I was sticking it to the man, like Mr. Jet Blue Flight Attendant or that episode of Roseanne where the gang finally walks out of Wellman Plastics. There was never a moment of regret, either.
Instead, what I felt was:
- Fear — that my business wouldn’t bring in enough income, or that my savings were inadequate, or that I didn’t have enough of a safety net, or that I would get bored or lonely as a free agent.
- Sadness — about not seeing my coworkers on a regular basis and missing out on their constant antics.
- Excitement — that I could finally devote myself full-time to meeting the needs of my diverse array of clients.
- Accomplishment — about all the things I did while I was at ESD 112, such as improving school district communications, implementing social media for school districts and knocking out some kick-ass design projects.
- Gratitude — for the opportunity to serve, however that shows up for me today.
Do I wish my emotions were less complicated? Of course I do. I’m a child of the ’90s, and sometimes I wish life transitions would go like that episode of Roseanne, where you can leave the plastic factory and never look back.
The truth is, we all look back. If we’re intentional, we can look back with fondness, with gratitude, and with a sense of wonder about all the places life has taken us.
At least, that’s my plan for today.
Hi Mike,
Thanks for sharing about your transition. Yes, emotions are complicated, but being aware of them only makes you a better businessman and helps you also realize that emotions are critical in the role of creation. As long as you have them under control. Keep at it, you can do it!
Well written and wishing you success in your new endeavors!
@Chris – Awareness IS the most important step. Then there’s that bit about feeling your feelings and moving on.
@Jeff – Thanks!
I’ve gotta admire the courage and fortitude it takes to go out on your own with such gusto. It’s like you’re standing tall, on the wings of your dream.
@JakeM – I am the Balki Bartokomous of graphic design.
First, I LOVE the Roseanne reference!
Second, this is so true. When I left my job to work for myself, I had all of these emotions but it turned out to be the best decision I’ve ever made. I’ve seen your work and I know you will be very successful. Your clients are lucky to have such a talented and dedicated designer.
Congratulations, Mike, on taking such a big step! I know that nothing but success awaits you. But you’re right, it’s complicated because there are always trade-offs with every big decision. It’ll be great though, and if you ever get really lonely, we can start a Google+ hangout.